Neko

Salam..

It has been a long time.. so sorry for that. When there's more thing to do and to think, and to give more attention to, you will know yourself how to arrange it according to its priority.. err... no, it's not just an excuse! ..err..

well, sedar tak sedar, dah nak masuk 2 tahun i've been a wife ( and nearly 2 years i've been silent from writing..huhu).. and nearly 1 year i've became a mother. NOt long enuff, yes, I agreed. But i'm learning along the way.. so many things i've learnt so far, and so many things i've never expected to be.

Sebelum ni I think life is easy, I mean in 'my sense' of easy: belajar ilmu agama, amal ilmu agama, buat yang wajib, tinggal yang dilarang, cuba buat yang sunat, jaga hati ibu bapa, jaga hati orang lain, ikut peraturan, jangan ponteng kelas, jangan ponteng keje, jaga diri sendiri, perbaiki diri sendiri...diri sendiri...diri sendiri..diri sendiri....!!

Tapi bila dah kawen, things changes. I have to think about others, despite of think about myself in the way of making decisions, making improvement, in the way of betterment... about everything lah! and it's difficult. Emm.. very difficult in the beginning.. and I'm now still learning .

And when I'm becoming a mother, things keep changing. It's totally not only ME to make decision, it's US (me and my hubby). No such things of ME ME ME and ME anymore!! uhuuhh... and i'm trying to adapt to it.. because before i got married, i've always in my mind, i want my child to be like this ..like this..like this.. and now, i'm only one of my daughter parents. There's another one. We are a company.. we should work together.. huhu.. hopefully i can apply what i've planned before well enough..

And I've dare thought to quit my job when my baby just few months old..  which i never thought of it before she arrived. And of course it startled both of my parents! Both of them menentang habis2an.. iye lah, dah berpuluh2 ribu habis nak suh aku blajar jadi doktor, last2 sesedap rasa je kata nak quit.. hehe. Tapi, I later revealed that most of my friends that already married and had a child will feel that way as well, so... it's not only me who seems emotional duh, it's the natural feeling of becoming a mother and the will to give the best for our children. Tapi nasib baik tak jadi berenti, olok2 je tu.. (sebab tak habis lagi kontrak ngan JPa.. sapa pulak nak bayar nanti? hehe).... lagi pun bila my baby dah besar sikit, dah tak breastfeeding dah, ok dah sikit rasa. But now I think i'll not proceed with my ambition to become an OnG specialist. I'm not so happy to be oncalling and leave my children behind, even though i may be proud and happy to treat the mothers over there. May be I should persue my study on basic science instead, perhaps?... hmm... still under planning,..

Well, anyway, lots of things will happen onwards.. I'm so glad that I marry my man.. and i've learnt a lot from him about life. Life is actually the best teacher. And Life will be a happy one if you live this life happily... dan tak lupa.. hidup kita bukan hanya untuk hidup, tapi hidup kita adalah sebagai bekal untuk mati sahaja.

wallahua'lam. Semoga mendapat manfa'at.

Letter to a Muslim Student

Sayyed Hassan Al Banna

[Hassan al Banna was born in 1906 in Egypt into a family of scholars. In 1928, he formed Ikhwan al Muslimeen (the Muslim Brotherhood organization). This movement for the revival of Islam soon spread across Egypt and the region. In December 1948, the Muslim Brotherhood organization was suppressed and thousands of its members arrested. Hassan al Banna was spared arrest only to be assassinated in February 1949.

Letter to a Muslim Student is the English translation of a letter that Hassan al Banna wrote to one of his students that was studying in the West. The sincere advice contained in this letter is drawn from the perennial values and ethos of Islam. It reminds the addressee and indeed all Muslims that the first and foremost goal in a Muslims life is to please God and live in accordance to His sacred law. Also, it brings home that studying ought not to be an end in itself or for seeking material gain. A Muslim ought to excel in his or her study in order to work for Islam and benefit humanity.]



My brother in Islam (who may Allah guard and protect). I praise Allah for there is no god but Him. May the peace and blessings of Allah be upon Muhammad, who was sent as a mercy to all of humanity, upon his family, companions and on all those who hold fast to the Shariah until the Day of Judgement.

May the peace and blessings of Allah be upon you when you travel with a proper intention and a noble purpose, and when you return with a sound endeavor and to a dedicated cause.

May the peace and blessings of Allah be upon you as you serve Islam with the finest fruits of science and the best of knowledge.

Dearest brother, you will be amongst people you have not known before and characters you are not accustomed to. In you they will see the example of a Muslim. So make sure they see in you the best example and the finest image, in order for them to understand that the word 'Muslim' embodies virtue and nobility.

With you is a precious trust, that is your righteous wife, appreciate this. Towards her be a trustworthy companion. Provide her with comfort and happiness. Share with her felicity, without being careless in acquiring your rights and negligent in performing your duties.

Read these few words that are borne out of my love and sincerity for you, as an elder brother expressing for his brother and sister the best wishes and the happiest life.

O my brother, excel in your observance of Allah (swt) in all your dealings. Understand that He (swt) keeps watch over you, sees you and encompasses all that is of concern to you - wherever you are. He knows the treachery of your eyes and all that your heart conceals. Strive not to let Allah (swt) see you, except that He is pleased with you.
Do not be unmindful in your observance of the One (glorified and exalted is He), otherwise Satan will infiltrate you and you will be overcome by the whispers of your whims and desires. Believe, my dearest brother, that whenever a heart is conscious of Allah's observance, it will never be approached by Satan. However, once it departs from Allah's awareness, evil will be attracted to it and it will be inhabited by whims and desires. So, consolidate your heart with the observance of Allah and in vigil seek refuge from your surroundings and do not be among the unmindful.

Perform the obligatory duties which Allah has enjoined upon you, at their appointed times. Do not neglect them by relying on performing them at a later time, because you are busy with work or resorting to other excuses for justification. This is a deception of your own self and of your own whims: And follow not desire that it beguile you from the way of Allah (Sad 38: 26).
Understand also my dearest brother that no one draws nearer to Allah with anything more beloved to Him than performing the obligatory duties as stated in the hadith of al-Bukhari. So be aware not to neglect your obligatory duties or feel lazy in performing them; they are Allah's right over you. Be steadfast in prayer and perfect your fast.

If you are in a state of complete inability to fast, then according to the saying of Allah (swt) you have a remission: ... For those who are capable of fasting (but still do not fast) there is a redemption: feeding a needy man for each day missed. Whoever, voluntarily, does more good than is required, will find it is better for him; and that you should fast is better for you, if you only know (al-Baqara 2: 184). But be aware not to take this verse as an excuse for falling short.

Fasting with hardship in the homeland of the West will earn you a valuable reward and be an asset to your account; it is pleasing to your Lord and righteous to yourself. So do not attempt to break the fast, unless you are unable to complete it. I need not advise you, any further, towards your obligatory duties, after all they are your capital. Can you imagine one who has wasted his capital, what will his state be amongst tomorrow's profit makers?

Spend whatever time you can in performing supererogatory works as duties of obedience. Perform the sunna prayers. Increase your appeal for forgiveness and the praising of your Glorified Lord. Remember, that ones supplication, during travel or in expatriation, will be answered; hence, increase your supplication in secret and in humility. Continue your remembrance of Allah (swt).
The Prophet (saw) advised Ali (ra) to continuously dampen his tongue in the remembrance of Allah. Do not abandon that path which leads you to nothing but duties and obedience, they are like an investment that multiply rewards. The remembrance of Allah amongst the unmindful nations is like a shining light. So make use of this time, for it is a season to harvest the rewards of the Hereafter, only for those who wish to seize the opportunities and benefit from such seasons.

Increase your recitation of the Glorious Quran with understanding and deliberation. It is a healing for the soul and a comfort to the heart. Designate from it a portion to read at the beginning of the day and a portion to read at the end of it, hence the best beginning and the best end.
In the delights of life and pleasures of the world, you will see that which inclines the heart, impresses the mind, attracts the eye and bewilders those whose spirits are weak. Do not let these seduce you away from virtue and cause you to forget the Hereafter: Do not turn your eyes covetously towards the embellishments of worldly life that We have bestowed upon various kinds of people to test them. But the clean provision bestowed upon you by your Lord is better and more enduring. Enjoin Prayer on your household, and do keep observing it. We do not ask you for any worldly provision; rather, it is We Who provide you. The ultimate end is for piety (Ta Ha 20: 131-2).
Be aware my dearest brother that in the sight of Allah (swt) all these pleasures weigh not even the wing of a gnat and lead neither to honor nor virtue. They are nothing but the manifestations of whims and pitfalls of seduction. So be careful not to let Satan deceive you, otherwise you will plunge into the abyss of sin and corruption.

Always remember the words of Allah (swt): Men are naturally tempted by the lure of women, children, treasures of gold and silver, horses of mark, cattle and plantations. These are the enjoyments in the life of this world; but with Allah lies a goodly abode to return to (Al Imran 3:14). The Book of Allah recites these facts day and night. So do not be amongst those who favor the worldly life over the Hereafter, or amongst those deceived by the outward appearance of things without considering their essence.

All pleasures brought by contemporary civilization will result in nothing other than pain. A pain that will overwhelm their enticement and remove their sweetness. So avoid the worldly aspects of these people; do not let it take over your command and deceive you, if you are to be among the successors.

Dearest brother, what Allah has made Haram (unlawful) for us, those people consider it as Halal (lawful) for them. Hence, when they commit a Haram (unlawful) act, they will neither feel ashamed nor will they refrain from perpetrating it. You should neither agree with their whims nor mix with them in their sins. Otherwise, you will not be relieved from having to answer before Allah (swt) and it will not hold as an excuse on the Day of Judgment.
Do not take their girls for company, and do not let there develop between you and them, any special friendship or any emotional relationship. If this kind of socializing is a sin for those other than you, then it is a sin twice as great for you and you know well the meaning of this. Although you are known to us to be one that is trustworthy and decent, I have mentioned this to you, to caution you against the downfalls of sins so that your feet may never slip. And in your chastity let there be content and in your dignity let there be adequacy.
As for alcohol, do not approach it and do not use the climate as an excuse, because when Allah made it Haram (unlawful), He had full knowledge about all types of climate but did not exclude one country from another or one nation from another from this prohibition. Allah (swt) made it forbidden with neither doubt nor exception. So be aware not to let it occupy a part of your abdomen, otherwise it will remain as a black spot on its pure skin.
Be determined as much as possible before the first drink. Because once your mind is concealed by it, you will follow it by the second and third drink, whereby you will have fallen into a pit, difficult to escape from and will have incriminated yourself and others. then, even if you expiated this sin with repentance, you would still not match your original purity and superb credibility.

Do not taste anything in those restaurants which serve Haram (unlawful) food, like pork and dead meat. In that which is Halal (lawful) you have a substitute and enough for contentment. So do not taste the Haram (unlawful) and do not let your flesh grow on it, otherwise fire is what it deserves. Allah (swt) has prohibited that which is impure: . . . He enjoins upon them what is good and forbids them what is evil... (al-Araf 7: 157). So leave that which is bad for that which is good.
As for casinos, night-clubs, and other such places of vanity, your time is far too precious to be wasted in them. I have looked into the saying, time is made of gold, and I do not approve of it. Time is far more precious than gold, for time is life. Is it not true that your life is nothing but a few hours and you never know when they will end? Dearest brother, be stringent with your time and do not spend it except in that which is significant, and acquire pleasure in that which is lawful.
In the heavens there is calmness and on the earth there is beauty. In the gardens there is freshness and in you there is a sign. In the sea there is might and in the air there is nourishment. Take from all this comfort for your soul and recovery for your mind. And do not waste your time by being unmindful, this will shield you from good and lead you to evil.

Be critical, with insight, and be just and well acquainted with people. Do not let your goodness draw you to forget their bad, and their bad hurt you to forget their goodness. Rather study them as would a researcher and an examiner. Encompass with knowledge all of their affairs, and then with an eye of insight, scrutinize it all. Present back the good that you find to your people and nation, and return with it victorious and supported. Other than that, throw it back on them and do not come back until you have dusted off your hands and emptied your mind of it all.
You will find there a group of people dishonoring your Prophet (saw), faulting your Quran and disgracing your people. Do not sit with such people, until they turn to a different theme, even if it is necessary for you to enter into a dialogue with them. Argue with them in the best manner. Explain to them the good that you know and avoid controversies that lead to hatred and sedition (fitnah).

Lo! You (O Mohammed) guide not whom you love, but Allah guides whom he will. And He is best aware of those who walk aright (al-Qasas 28: 56).

Dearest brother, be aware that calling the people through practical example is far better than calling them through speech. It is far more fruitful and beneficial to use your commendable character, the perfection of yourself and your straight manner to defend and call them to your religion and nation. Whenever an opportunity arises for you to deliver a speech or a lecture at one of their meeting places or societies, prepare yourself for it. Choose that which will not stir disorder and that which will not offend integrity. Do not be apprehended by their stance, because Allah's aid is with those who are sincere. Be positive and do not insult other people's beliefs instead, elucidate to them their innate goodness and reveal to them our beliefs. By doing so, you will have adequately promoted awareness and incentive.

Finally, and there is still so much for me to say and I would have loved to continue this advice with you, yet my concern is that if I prolong this discourse any more, you may forget most of what I have said; for over speaking does distract one from what is being said. For both of you then, may Allah raise you to be the best of the successors and may His safety accompany you.

May He protect both of you and return you in goodness, as is wishes by those who are sincere. I entrust to Allah your religion, your obligations and the outcome of your actions. May the peace and blessings of Allah be upon you. Ameen

Pernah dengar orang kata Allah di langit? betul ke Allah di langit?

Kan ke Allah itu tidak berjisim dan tak memenuhi ruang, sebab sifatnya tidak menyerupai makhluk yang berjisim dan memenuhi ruang....

Allah bukan dilangit ke?

Bismillah.

A very quick entry i guess. Too many things to say, but if you keep it too long, you will have no desire to talk about it anymore, right? huhu... and time is too precious  just to spend it in front of this computer (although i already waste it la anyway...).

So, kejap tak kejap, dah nak habis satu posting... rasa cam more comfortable, tapi still hampeh lagi. Keja tak cekap2 jugak. tapi tak pe, aku kan housemen je, bukan specialist...hahak. Tak sabar nak habiskan posting ni, tak sabar nak masuk posting lain, dan tak sabar nak habiskan housemenship....tak sabar nak jadi m.o, tak sabar nak amek master, tak sabar nak bukak klinik sendiri, keje sendiri, balik ofis hour...huahuahua... alangkah indahnya berangan2 ni. Camana nak jadi konfiden dan berani cam dulu ni???!!

Banyak menda jadi... mak azwati meninggal... innalillah, takziah kepada dia. Aa nak kawin this week.. congrats! Tak sabar nak gi perlis. Db, mardhiah ngan k.nur alhamdulillah dah selamat melahirkan baby girls.... harap semuanya jadi muslimah solehah. Supaya orang2 beriman bertambah ramai, bukan golongan2 hampeh aje yang ramai. K.na pegnen... and mee too.. !! huhu...awat cepat sangat? apa nak buat...rezeki tu...doa aje lah supaya segalanya selamat.

Melangkah selangkah lagi ke alam baru. And me growing old.. My parents too... moga aku menjadi anak solehah. Dan berjaya mendidik anak2 menjadi anak yang soleh-solehah.

P/s: duk wad bayi ni macam2 baby ada. Yang normal, yang tak normal....jadi takut pulak.. Ya Allah, mintak dijauhkan perkara2 yang buruk daripada berlaku. Amin.

This is sweet......

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When You Thought I Wasn't Looking

Kawan di akhir zaman ini

Kawan di akhir zaman ini
Payah untuk kita ketemui
Yang benar-benar sibuk
Dengan urusan baiki diri nya
Yang ada kini hanya
Sibuk dengan urusan mengumpul dunia
Walau di ketahui dunia ini hanya menipu daya

Kawan di akhir zaman ini
Payah untuk kita ketemui
Yang bergelumang dengan majlis ilmu menafaat Yang sanggup bersusah dan 
penat
Dalam mengejar dan memahami ilmu menafaat Yang ada kini hanya lah
Berbangga dengan ijazah yang menjela
Tapi ilmu fardhu Ain nya kosong belaka

Kawan di akhir zaman ini
Payah untuk kita ketemui
Ahli professional yang bertaqwa
Yang benar-benar meletakan Islam di jiwa
Mengunakan profession nya sebagai matlamat ke akhirat sana Yang ada 
hanya ahli professional yang lalai dan leka Yang hidup nya lebih barat 
dari barat
Ibadah dan amal terasa amat berat

Kawan di akhir zaman ini
Payah untuk kita ketemui
Yang bersilaturrahim kerana tiada kepentingan Yang berhubung hanya niat 
bertanya khabar
Yang ada hanya
Yang berkroni untuk mendapat projek yag sedia ada Bersahabat untuk 
mendapat laba

Kawan di akhir zaman ini
Payah untuk kita temui
Yang suka berbincang mengenai dosa-dosa sendiri Yang menghidupkan ilmu 
yang ada
Yang mensyiarkan Islam pada diri mereka
Yang ada hanyalah
Yang suka berbincang dosa-dosa orang lain Yang menghidupkan sunnah 
barat
Yang melupakan kehidupan akhirat

Kawan di akhir zaman ini
Susah untuk kita temui
Yang menjadikan masjid tempat pertemuan
Yang menjadikan program usrah tempat berkenalan Yang ada hanya
Yang menjadikan komplek tempat membuang umur Yang menjadikan disko dan 
pesta sebagai tempat berhibur

Kawan di akhir zaman ini
Susah untuk kita temui
Yang menjadikan sunnah sebagai hiburan
Menjadikan nasyid nyayian harian
Menjadikan selawat ucapan kelaziman
Yang ada hanya
Artis di jadikan bahan pujaan
Nyanyian melalaikan di jadikan hiburan
Dianggap moden dan berketrampilan

Kawan di akhir zaman ini
Susah untuk kita temui
Yang senantisa merasai mati itu sangat hampir Yang senantiasa merasai 
jelingan Izrail
Menangis cemas mengenangkan saat kematian Merintih sayu mengenangkan 
persediaan
Yang ada hanya
Yang panjang angan-angan
Mengumpul dunia kerja seharian
Seolah kematian itu sangat jauh
Seperti alam barzakh itu tidak di tempuh

Bismillah.

Entering children world.... hmmm... it's fun. humm... better than during my student time which I thought paeds is kinda boring posting gak la....

Just finished tagging. Tomorrow i'll start my first day oncall... arrgghh!!! hopefully everything wil be fine. I pray to Allah everything will be fine. No serious case, no difficult management.... not on my first day!

Working... humm... required lots of self feeling of responsibility. Me:... just having half of it... (just finished tagging ngan MO-MO yang baik hati.. so not fully felt responsible...huhu...)

All the best ny dear friends..... keep in touch, with